got an icebox where my heart used to be

The title is merely in lieu of the fact that my heart has probably frozen over after all the rain and singapore cold. I don’t like pasir ris anymore, the wind is so strong and so.damn.cold.

I can deal with winter but cold summer is just whack. I’m busting out the scarves soon, at least my wardrobe is finally appropriate kekeke.

In other news, actually there is no other news. My life is quite the same I get 2 days a week to laze around at home and the rest I go out hahaha; so now you know what the life of a jobless schoolless person is like.

Yeah so okay I have nothing else to say. Uh yeah. Okay. Toodles!!!

My dad is pissed cause I dragged him to my dental (again) and so he is determined to embarrass me by yelling out the answers for wheel of fortune (on the tv).

I moved. It didn’t help.

Sigh I forgot to bring my book so I am sitting here hoping nobody sends my dad to the psych ward and that my dentist hurries up. Doesn’t help that I keep coughing attention-grabbingly.

Why my life so sad.

This has been a feeling sorry for myself post.

(oh and I am still jobless- entirely my fault. But still.)

hello

I just found the below post in my drafts from Thursday
night haha I thought I deleted it by accident but apparently not. I
am bored bored bored on the 81 now I love being able to post from
moving vehicles cause otherwise I would seriously just abandon this
space and everything else online. Except tumblr. Liverpool has been
trashed so many times lately it’s not even funny anymore I can’t
wait till they get their form back and then man u can just go jump
off a cliff into hell. Actually no just their fans. But rm will
always be my pride welcome back kaka:))) I am suffering repressed
football fan-ness cause nobody is around for me to talk football
with!!! ( Sian I am really bored but I can’t think of anything
else to say!! So farewell I shall tumble ( sounds weird) or
something.

party all night and sleep all day

Been having a pretty awesome year so farrrr, catching up with all the people (hehe I just got auto corrected to be catching up with the proletariat hahahaha) so anyway yeah been spending alot of time with old friends:)

And of course living it up ^^ this is the good life.

I cannot wait till France. But of course this means that I will have to stop living the good life and actually get my ass to a job:( but nevertheless!!! It sounds epicly awesome already.

And of course congratulations to all my dear genius ib frenzz you are seriously brilliant. So proud of you:)))

Sian I am really bored city hall is very far from pasir ris and I am spending about 3 bucks on this train ride thanks to adult fare >:C

But anyway I shall ttyl because I am making too many typos and that is not cool.

get a call from an old friend

ever feel guilty because you were trying so hard to protect yourself from getting hurt that you ended up hurting the other person instead? and then you know its all your fault and you hate to see them hurt but you can’t do anything cause you already built up that wall and told the world you don’t need them. and then all that’s left is for you to take that chance and go out of your way but you’re still scared and then that moment’s going to pass and it’s now or never and…you just don’t know.

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anyway, i had a lovely christmas. while most people dance around to christmas carols and decorate the house, i prefer to rock out to the black eyed peas like the energy never dies with auto censoring from my ancient hifi thing^^

of course once the parents came home and guests came over it was carols ftw hahaha. m & s came over! and the usual family gang, my nephews are so old now i can’t even. and my niece is adorable, she looks like me hehehe.

ooh and i got an iphone! but stilll figuring it out need my netbook to type long emo posts ^^ and unsent emails sigh

aight, i’m off, got 9am meeting with celta guy tomorrow and engrossed in hawthorne rerunsssss

♥

i don’t know how it gets better than this

i hate that awkward moment when you walk into a room and your eyes just land on something and you go ‘oh shit that has to be my christmas present’ and then you are forced into a debate with yourself about whether to reveal you’ve seen it or just act surprised on christmas day. anyone else? no? just me then.

anyway my dad is adorable. he just got back this morning and he goes here, part one of your christmas present, very hesitantly, and hands me a tswift cd!!!!! hahahahah s is very amused by this. and he’s all, have you heard of her before? and i am just like, yes, yes thank you!!!!! hahaha there goes my street cred. but we all know i will always secretly love tswift

i love my dad.

♥

your faith was strong but you needed proof

i know my jetlag is so not legit but i am so awake! i am enjoying tv internet phone and christmas spirit hehe/

but has sg always been this hot?

mmm i am back on fb! haha i decided to be cause i cannot abandon all my international friends again:( v cliche but i feel like my life has changed , somehow, that things cannot go back to normal again.

i hope they never do.

ok la imma try to sleep, get over trip withdrawal fasterrrrrrrrrr

♥

 

i wanna celebrate and live my life

AND NOW I CAN!!!!!!

finallyfinallyfinallyfinallyfinallyfinally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i warn you first, this is going to evolve into a pensive post by the end. so, be warned.

but anyway, yes it hasn’t really sunk in yet it feels oddly strange and…wrong. but the truth of the matter is, we’re freeeeeeeee!

i am no longer a kbox virgin hehe and now my throat hurts like shit, but it was epicly worth it, there are no better people to kbox with, because we are all secretly rappers masquerading as bimbos. eminem ftw.

i met like a slew of old schoolmates ystd haha it was so funny, and sy said that uni is gonna be worse than a’s so dont celebrate ): but its still far far awayyyy so. well. i dont care, basically.

aiyy but yes something has changed with exams, idk what but i feel different. shopping… didn’t seem as fun. fb just makes me wanna delete my acc. even  tumblr!!!! it seems kinda, lame. no i cannot believe i just said that. ):

no i am probably just disoriented i will be back to myself in awhile. i hope. it seems too bittersweet for me, i thought i would be happier than this though. weird.

its like i was saying to s & m, its like we’ve always been walking towards mt everest and suddenly we passed it so we have no freaking idea where we’re going. thats how i feel. like, huh, where the hell..?

yes. you were warned. i am going to tumblr now haha and try to restore myself.

♥

 

when it seems all your dreams come undone

I really need to get some work done. there’s cw lecture tomorrow but i so do not feel like going!!!! even if it is ‘ms pretty teo’ as g says hahaha.

seoul garden today was quite funnn, supposed to meet the husband tomorrow for drinks but being the disappointed students we are we’ll probably just end up staying home to study.

i’m being incoherent and boring i know. there’s something on my mind but i can’t figure out what.

i really need to study harder but i really cannot. i don’t know how. i wish people would stop telling me what i should do and start telling me how the hell i’m going to do it. or else just shut up thx.

ack sorry, angst.

anw s, congrats on york!!!!! nice one (y) we need to take our polaroid peekcha cause i want one to put in my wallet heheheh.

♥

i am sorry to tell you it never gets better

h8 that tumblr’s being a bitch. now i have nothing to do but go to sleep and face school in what is going to feel like ten minutes.

i do not want to face school.

in fact, the closest i want to come to school is feeling old skool from watching gilmore girls reruns and donning 60′s outfits.

plus there is the fact that i have grown disastrously fatter and my teachers probably aren’t going to recognise me. they’ll wonder why augustus gloop is in their class  and blacklist me for ponning. (as usual, they’ll think)

and to make matters worse, there will be 234524657954634 talks on how we cannot slack anymore, how this procedure is for that and the deadline is like, oh yesterday how come you didn’t take the initiative to find out?? and the what are you doing with your life speeches. plus, if they’re feeling particularly charitable, the ‘i know you have it in you, you just need to stop being so damn lazy’ lines.

so yeah. did i mention i’m not looking forward to school?