I don’t remember being excited to blog in a long time! but h3 lit’s fried my brainnnnnnns so dont expect an inspired soliloquy!
It feels weird to be blogging anyway haha, so rusty, gotta get back into it! andd this weeks is killer cause of school shizz buttttt:
thurs: superdog fri: TGIF ttm, a11 lunch? sat: joseph+anna’s house sun: ‘reunion dinner’ hahahaha mon: 313 (if its open which i hope to hell it is!)
happyhappyhappy, eggcited! (:
7months, almost as long as…, never mind.
sometimes i come back here, and just look at the page i left months ago: ’c'est tellement mysterieux, le pays des larmes’.
maybe in some strange way its me reassuring myself that there’s still one thing i can control, that this page still looks the same because thats the way i want it to. & also because i like the way i left it and i dont want to touch it again and ruin it (comme toujours).
&bytheway; French literature is amazing.
✯ Les grandes personnes ne comprennent jamais rien toutes seules, et c’est fatigant, pour les enfants, de toujours et toujours leur donner des explications.
-Le Petit Prince, Antoine de Saint Exupery
I found my life anthem/story of my life in gp yesterday.
This be the verse-Philip Larkin
&bytheway; French literature is amazing.
its something of a longstanding joke in my family, that i’m in mourning. owing to my black/white/grey wardrobe. not that i’m emo/goth, just well…boring. ANYHOW, yesterday when my mum ran out of insults, she shot at me,
”dress like that, you think you’re in mourning??” so i calmly gave her a thats-so-old look and went
”yeah, for my social life.”
seeing as i have now been promised that my life will be hell henceforth, mengxin calls this foreshadowing.
HAHA.
Life has been dragging by quickly. Each day is like euughrghrgh but its not taking forever! a11 is awesome, math still kills brain cells, econs is stupid, i am a hopeless guitar geek (:D) and the quote book is the best thing since watermelon juice.
i’m like gossip girl, yo.
you know you love me, xoxo.
<3
hello hilarious huimei this post is dedicated to you for being the silly simpkins you are:D
and hello world, let me tell you about the aforemantioned strange simpkins.
She did not know that gregory lemarchal<3 was dead. And when she found out, she smsed a whole bunch of random people ‘GREGORY IS DEAD’ and awoke to the whole bunch freaking out cause turns out, she has a friend called gregory. 
HAHA.
and she stayed up laateee with me while i was dying with my history essay because she’s so nice and fed me study tips going ‘hey, it helped me graduate.’ (:
and and and:
me: yeah but like totally platonic. huimei: isnt platonic like the rocks? like there’s a planet then it’s rocks are called platonic rocks? Plato. Right? OH WAIT ITS PLUTO. (I envision her shaking her head and ridding herself of that sentence) Phew blonde moment.
HAHA I LOVE YOU HUIMEI SIMPKINS YOU MAKE MY LIFE SO INTERESTING <333333333333!
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They’ll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend – you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don’t focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
I practically fell out of bed and hurried to open the door for my aunt, still rubbing my eyes; and she greets me with-wow you look like a model.
I love my aunt she does wonders for my self-esteem:D
Grandmother’s birthday dinner earlier. Have to admit; its not exactly something i was looking forward to. But it was pretty awesome, kind of nostalgic and yet without the whole ‘gloomy’ atmosphere. Only at one point, I opened my mouth and heard the voice of an adult; the practicality laced with cynicism. I didnt talk again until much later.
‘Don’t Forget the Lyrics’ was on tv in the background. I heard ‘YMCA’ and remembered nat sim and all of us attempting to sing ‘Don’t stay at the YMCA’ after our horrible stop in Bath during Lit trip. 2years and i still miss lit trip): and Mei-E’s Frook and Trook:D
I realised my family actually means so much more to me than i know. I realised I have the best friends in the world and i don’t half deserve them.
I am really grateful right now.
(:
This morning i opened my bible and saw this:
‘JESUS I WILL NEVER QUIT.’ signed by me.
It was a promise. God doesn’t break His promises, so i can’t break mine.
I CAN’T WAIT FOR THIS!!!
johnny depp AND christian bale??!? KILL ME NOW. (yes yes whatever i like old guys alriight?)
yay at long last; finally something to look forward to! cantwaitcantwaitcantwait(:
Lately i haven’t been myself.
Lately i’ve been saying/doing stupid things that i’m already starting to regret.
Lately i’ve been so selfish and hurt/neglected the friends that mean the world to me.
Lately i’ve been concentrating too much on trying not to pretend to be something i’m not and ended up pretending to be something else.
Lately i dont know what i’m doing.
Judging by everything, things that’ve been happening and people i’ve met-these should be some of the best weeks of my life. But they’re empty, meaningless even.
Ironically, I feel like i have everything now except one thing, the only one that actually matters. God, where are You? Or is it-where have I been? And not too long ago He was the only thing i had.
How can i live without You; You’re all i’m living for.
