ever feel guilty because you were trying so hard to protect yourself from getting hurt that you ended up hurting the other person instead? and then you know its all your fault and you hate to see them hurt but you can’t do anything cause you already built up that wall and told the world you don’t need them. and then all that’s left is for you to take that chance and go out of your way but you’re still scared and then that moment’s going to pass and it’s now or never and…you just don’t know.
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anyway, i had a lovely christmas. while most people dance around to christmas carols and decorate the house, i prefer to rock out to the black eyed peas like the energy never dies with auto censoring from my ancient hifi thing^^
of course once the parents came home and guests came over it was carols ftw hahaha. m & s came over! and the usual family gang, my nephews are so old now i can’t even. and my niece is adorable, she looks like me hehehe.
ooh and i got an iphone! but stilll figuring it out need my netbook to type long emo posts ^^ and unsent emails sigh
aight, i’m off, got 9am meeting with celta guy tomorrow and engrossed in hawthorne rerunsssss
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